I knew I lost the game because I played against my own rules.. follow your guidelines and you can never get lost...From pain, we take the wrongest decisions, from love we become desperate for not losing what we dont even have...I sometimes remember everything, every word we said, every detail of my feelings and realise how much I was wrong....so wrong that I couldnt imagine my life without you in it. And thats as wrong as it gets for me.
You couldnt miss me when you werent used to me in the first place, you dont know how to miss me cause you never really enjoyed me, we never had our moments, our memories, the time on our side... Love on the run on a cold autumn night...
Love is such a complex feeling, that you need time to explore whats behind the lovely curtains when you let them fall. I only dream big, and I can never be happy with half of everything.. I often choose nothing, when ALL is an illusion. And now I feel im drowning, I struggle to breath again in the mess you left behind.. Winter nights will be cold as my heart is...
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